dark.

so.. i'm not very good at describing my own feeling and it sucks. i was not in the right mood for few days. emptiness. although some of you tried to cheer me up, but i just couldn't help but to ignore you guys . sorry.

i don't know why i felt so much emptiness inside me although many of you chatted with me on fb, and some others text me but.. i dont know.. hmmm.. just not in the mood. maybe i'm in such a worry right now regarding to my future. what will i be? and yeah, upu sucks. 

yesterday i went to saser with some of my friends and without realizing, it has been one and a half year since we left saser. and the teachers had some issues regarding to recall back our names inside their memories. haha i don't blame them. we only studied there for two years and students keep changing. and plus, who am i; saiful hakim bin shukor, during the darkness era of my life. i know for some of my saser friends think that the years that they spent in saser were the best two years in their life. but not for me. sorry. not that i hate saser or the teachers or the friends but saser just not the best or the happiest thing that ever happened to me. i struggled a lot when i was there. and i hate it. but i still love you guys my friends and my teachers. i love you guys. it just the bad memories of struggling and keeping good grades that really made me felt like saser wasn't the best memory for me to keep. but i am grateful of what i've been given. things happened for reasons and i learnt a lot when i was in saser.

i had talked about this last year. the most important thing that i've learned in saser is : how to deal with annoying people. yes. you know, when you were around smart and genius-minded people 24/7 what you will get? as for me, i turned out to be the most inferior person and i was quite embarrassed of myself back then. bad grades, bad reputation, and gosh i hate it. i once want to quit saser when i was in form 4 but then my mum and my beloved counselor miss fara persuaded me and they really-really want me to stay. it's hard you know to learn with these people. and some of these genius people loved to show off. but i told my self annoying people are just everywhere. even if i move out from that school there's still many annoying people out there.

and for my foundation year, still, so many damn annoying people. and i think i managed to deal with them. i'm a super talented actor cuz i faked it really really awesome and some of them didn't have any idea that i hate them like hell. great..

so my advice to you guys, in our life, we can't run away from these annoying people. just learn how to deal with them from now. because in the future, who knows we might be working with these type of people. and i think i want to stop. so thank you for reading this. i love you guys.